In February 2010, weighing in 252lbs,
Carma decided to give Marilyn Jenett's
"I Create My Body" Program a try.

This blog documents her journey.


Apparently … I don’t got rhythm


Posted by Carma | Posted in Exercise | Posted on 06-07-2010

Weight: 228.0lbs
WiiFit Age: 40

You may notice that I’ve lost 3.3lbs since yesterday. Trust me … you don’t want to do it the way I did.

My IBS flared up and I pretty much emptied my colon. Still not feeling so good, but I think the worst is over.

You may also notice that my WiiFit Age is much closer to my real age than usual. This is in part to the new tests that come with the WiiFit Plus — in addition to testing your physical balance, they also test your mental acuity. Today, I had to compare a number to another. If it was larger, I was supposed to squat. At first, no problem. Then they started covering the numbers so I had to remember what was there before. Ack! I was not prepared for that at 7am in the morning!

So, I think there is going to be a learning curve with the new system.

A case in point. One of the new exercises included in the WiiFit Plus is Rhythm Kung Fu. It doesn’t show you all the moves before getting started, so it took me several tries before I figured out one of them was two-hand punch. I kept missing it and a ceramic pot would land on my avatar’s head.

After several attempts, I’m now able to get through the game without the pot landing on my head and I’ve finally unlocked the Advanced version. But I’m not going to try it until I can raise my score on the Beginner version.

Self-Talk for Weight Loss & Management


Posted by Carma | Posted in Mindset | Posted on 06-06-2010

Weight: 231.3
WiiFit Age: 36

My husband often insists on eating dinner late. And almost every time we do I gain a pound or too. Today’s increase is due to eating dinner around 9pm last night. Erg.

One of the key components of the I Create My Body program is self talk about your weight and body. The program includes suggestions, but I I thought I’d do some online research and come up with a few of my own. I’m sharing them here so you can use them, too.

  • I lovingly accept the wonderful changes my body are going through as I create my ideal body now.
  • What I see in the mirror is rapidly becoming what I see with my mind’s eye: a beautiful, healthy, trim me!
  • Each day in every way my thoughts are creating my ideal body now.
  • I am grateful for how easy it has been to change my body by using my mind. I am a powerful creator and manifester!
  • I am creating my healthy, trim and oh so sexy body now and am happy with the great progress I’m making.
  • I love my body now. I am perfect and beautiful now and as my transforms to what it was always meant to be … health, beautiful and sexy!

Weight Confusion


Posted by Carma | Posted in Exercise, Mindset | Posted on 06-05-2010

Weight: 230.2lbs
WiiFit Age: 29

Yesterday we went and got our replacement Wii Balance Board. It came with the newer “game” WiiFit Plus, which is loads of fun. In fact, I tested out many of the new games last night and discovered that I still pretty much suck at balance games. Erg.

Anyway, this morning I did a little experiment and weighed myself on both the scale I’d been using for the past week or so and the WiiFit.

The demon-possessed scale still says I weigh 229lbs, just as it has been saying since Tuesday morning.

The WiiFit, as you can see from above, says that I gained .7lbs from my last logged weight and weigh 230.2lbs. As mentioned earlier, I switched to using the “Other” mode which neither adds nor subtracts from the weight.

Now there there are a couple of ways I can look at this:

1. I can pay attention to what the scale said and focus on the loss and regaining of 3lbs during this two-week break.

2. I can pay attention to what the WiiFit says and focus on the fact that in two weeks of moving and having to eat out, I pretty much maintained my weight and only gained a little over half a pound.

I’m choosing option 2. Option 1 is too dependent on a possessed scale and is more pessimistic. I choose to focus on the good things so I can have more of them.

Besides, with all the heavy lifting I’ve been doing it is quite possible that the weight gain was in muscle!

That said, the WiiFit Plus has a place where I can record my waist measurement. So, I’m going to go dig up my measuring tape and start recording that measurement at regular intervals, either weekly, bimonthly or monthly.

Do you measure? How often?

Is My Scale Possessed?


Posted by Carma | Posted in Food, Mindset | Posted on 06-03-2010

Weight: 229.0

On Monday, after a long day of cleaning the old apartment, lugging junk to the trash and moving a selection of grocery bags and open boxes full of last-minute stuff into the new apartment, we went out to a Chinese buffet for dinner. The restaurant had left a nice “Grand Opening” flyer offering 10% off our order on our door that morning.

Erg. Monday morning I weighed 226.5lbs, Tuesday morning and every morning since I’ve weighed 229.0lbs.

Yes, I thoroughly enjoyed the new buffet, tasting sesame balls for the first time and trying out their version of my favorite, coconut shrimp.

But really, three pounds?


For several days?

What’s up with that?

I’m beginning to think our scale is either broken or possessed by a weight loss sabotage demon.

I can see it now: this demon lives inside digital scales and holds onto an unflattering weight so that the person weighing in will loose heart and falter in their weight loss journey. (Yes, I used to watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer.)

Well, I’m having none of that. I’m persistent. I am rapidly approaching 210lbs and that’s all there is to it … even if the scale doesn’t believe me! ;-b

A more likely scenario, however, is that there is no demon possessing my scale, I’ve just reached what is called a weight loss plateau. This is where your body does its best to maintain status quo. So, maybe all this moving has caused me to lower my daily calories too much … so my body thinks I’m in some sort of crisis situation.

Therefore, now that things have settled down, I’ll regain my normal routine and the weight will begin being released again.

Two days left to go …


Posted by Carma | Posted in Exercise | Posted on 05-30-2010

Weight: 226.5

Today we should be able to get the last of the stuff out of the old apartment and start cleaning. I’ve already cleaned one of the bedrooms and closed it off yesterday.

Despite all the stuff I’ve let go through the years, I still have a lot of stuff. My 5’x5′ storage is about 2/3 full (to the ceiling) and we’re a bit crammed in this 1BR apartment. But it is all good because I will soon be leaving for Los Angeles and following my dreams.

And, of course, all the lugging and heaving and packing and cleaning is giving me a good muscle toning workout. It feels good.

On that note, I’ve been thinking for the past few weeks about taking up some form of martial art not only for exercise but to help me with focus (I have ADD). Maybe it was all those Starman and Japanese monster movies I watched growing up, but I’ve always been fascinated with martial arts. When done by a pro, it is beauty in motion.

However, I’m not sure which one I should choose. I can’t do anything that will be too hard on my back and I can’t do anything too slow because I’m just too impatient. 🙂

I talked with one martial arts expert whom I interviewed for a book I’m writing on public speaking and he suggested I look into Aikido, Chinese Kung Fu or Tai Chi. Aikido looks fun, but I could get hurt if someone throws me to the floor, which I know will happen a lot! Chinese Kung Fu is beautiful to watch but I’m afraid that the total lack of grace I’ve demonstrated when doing my kickboxing workout would make that a laughable adventure. And Tai Chi looks way too slow.

What do you think? Maybe I should give them a go anyway. Do you have any suggestions?

Here are some videos of the three forms I found on YouTube:

Chinese Kung Fu
Tai Chi

Sore, Tired But Feeling Stronger


Posted by Carma | Posted in Emotions, Exercise | Posted on 05-29-2010

Weight: 226.5

We’re now down to the wire in moving out of the old apartment … three days left to clear and clean it out. I’ve been lugging heavy boxes down stairs, to the house, to the storage and have the bruises on my forearms to prove it!

My muscles hurt and I’m looking forward to taking a day off and vegging.

That said, I’m feeling quite strong and energetic for the amount of lugging, hauling, lifting and such (in 90 degree weather, I might add) I’m doing.

Just a couple of months ago, I would not have been able to do this. I would have been huffing and puffing at least twice as much as I am now. So I know that my 25+ pounds lost is making a difference.

Happy, happy good times!

PS: I’m guessing that packing and moving counts as exercise. At least that’s what I’m going to say. 🙂

Uh Oh Chongo!


Posted by Carma | Posted in Exercise | Posted on 05-27-2010

Doh!Weight: 228.0lbs

You know, I think I may have been goofing up my weight records. You see, when I weigh myself on the Wii balance board, it gives me three options to choose … are my cloths:

a) Light (-2lbs)
b) Heavy (-4lbs)
c) Other (-0lbs)

Well, I’ve been choosing Light, so the weight it has been reporting may actually be 2lbs less than what I actually weighed. The horror!

This morning I weighed myself on the scale with and without my workout cloths (sports bra and shorts). There was no discernible difference. Erg.

That means, if I had done what I normally do, the Wii probably would have said I weighed 226lbs today.

Note to self: Choose “Other” from now on, once the fixed balance board returns.

The scary thought is that I may have weighed 254lbs when I started. Yikes!

Of course, if this holds true, then I’ve lost 3.5lbs since Monday and not just 1.5lbs. Yeah!

Oh well. Live and learn.

Doing Small Things … A Lesson from Mother Teresa


Posted by Carma | Posted in Emotions, Mindset | Posted on 05-26-2010

I subscribe to a business newsletter by Mark Joyner called Simpleology Daily. Everyday I receive an inspirational quote from a “mystery” person who is revealed on Friday. Today’s quote was:

“In this life, we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.”

I looked it up and this quote comes from Mother Teresa.

And it got me to thinking.

You see, my tendency is to take a really long time to make a decision and once I’ve made it, I want it NOW. So, I can get a little impatient sometimes.

And this has been happening with my weight loss. I’m “only” losing one pound per week. At this rate it will take me two years to get back to my ideal weight. And I want my thin body NOW. 🙂

And then I saw this quote. And it reminded me that I need to be grateful for each pound lost and love my body throughout this process. These are ways of thinking and being that help you manifest the universal laws used in the I Create My Body program to, well, create your ideal body.

So, from this point on, I’m going to love my body and be grateful for the transformation it is undergoing. There are reasons I gained this weight and a lesson to be learned. I now embrace the lessons and love the journey.

In other words, I will release each pound with love.

No data for a few weeks … whatever will I do?


Posted by Carma | Posted in Emotions, Exercise | Posted on 05-25-2010

How do you like my Gold’s Gym avatar?
She has green hair … with matching shorts and gloves.
Although I’ve logged in my weight as 229, she still
looks better than I do. Oh, well. I’m getting there.

Yesterday I dropped off the WiiFit balance board at The UPS Store. There was a crack in it and we’re getting it replaced. So today I have no weight data. I’m still confident that in the weeks it will take to get our replacement, I’ll stay on track for losing 1 pound a week. But not having that daily data will be interesting.

So, since I couldn’t do any balance board exercises, I did my Gold’s Gym Cardio Workout for the Wii instead today. I really love boxing style workouts. They feel good.

Although, I think if I was actually hitting someone or something I might not feel that way.

And, I must admit that I’m glad I’m doing this in the comfort of my own home and not anywhere someone could be watching. I’m a tad less than graceful and have accidentally knocked myself in the face coming back to the guard position. Having my fists in front of my face does not feel natural. 🙂

Another thing I’ve been noticing lately is how I feel in my body. Since I started the I Create My Body program, it seems that I feel like my thin self more and more. This feeling leads to feeling good about myself in general. So it always seems like a shock when I see myself in the mirror (or a store camera system) and I don’t match my internal vision of myself.

But I’m holding onto that vision anyway, because I know that each day I am returning to that vision … I am becoming that vision. And that feels good.

Yep, It is the carpet


Posted by Carma | Posted in Exercise | Posted on 05-24-2010

Weight: 229.5
WiiFit Age: 28

I did a little experiment this morning. You see, I just moved from a condo with a tile floor to an apartment with carpeting. I’ve found that since I moved here, my Body Test scores on the WiiFit have dropped. So, I decided to see what would happen if I removed the leg risers that are there to help when you’re using the balance board on carpet.

Without the legs, it said I had lost 4lbs since yesterday.

That didn’t seem right, so I tried it again. Yep, 4lbs.

So I put the legs back on and sure enough, even after three tries … my weight hasn’t changed. Weird, huh?

Anyway, all this moving from one apartment to the other … I’m still packing at the old place and bringing stuff over … has kind of thrown off my exercise schedule and even my mindset.

I think I’ll re-read the lessons again.